Wicked_eyes

I feel the mirror is a jealous friend. I'm not one to look into the mirror often,only a glance to see if my ponytail is neat but mostly I can feel it as I brush it. It's is a strange object, it's supposed to reflect the image in front of it but what I see isn't what you see, I'll look and see through my eyes and you'll see through yours, is it the image the person has in their eye or mind that showed what's in the mirror and is that image the same the person sees. I guess what I want to know is the image in the eye of who's looking at the mirror or are mirrors the exact image we see or what we want to see. Why do we use a mirror to see how we look but then turn around and ask someone how they think we look, because we see through it with our eyes and having doubts about how our eyes see things and not trusting the image in the mirror (what our mind's eye see) we need to know another person sees the same. I hate trying out clothes at stores , nothing...

 So today I start my new schedule. You see I have waited for something but I did not know what it was I was waiting for. A Life.  Most of us have a childhood and as time goes by we learn things, some irrelevant, something we learn will form our future, somethings we file away and not think of until it is needed.  Last night everything I ever learned,experienced and filed away, came at me and I'm not sure if I'm using the right word but I had an Epiphany, which by the way was the name of the woman who gave her life to give me mine.  I am excited, I have, I feel, to make plans, some people will come into my world and will help me and some will try to tear me down but I have this overwhelming feeling, and again, I feel there is another word to describe it, that things are clicking into place AND I WILL  BE  OK!

Some people are magnets, and I mean they attract other beings for certain purposes and you might not realize it but you are to them something they are looking for, whether it's just conversation, advice, a pat on the back they feel they don't really deserve or just that they are lost and broken and you are that magnet, that light, that mind that they don't have that tells them if they're right or wrong, if they shouldn't or should if it's possible to even do. If you are a magnet, and believe me you can live in a box and they will gravitate towards it, you will know if you are and you will understand that when you are needed you put yourself aside and become them, not wwjd because that not who they came to for whatever their needs are but what would you be able to live with . No advice, no what if, no so and so do but what can you live with as in whether it's the right thing or not, can you live day after day with a clear mind?

I stresses over not being able to write anything and how short and crappie my first thought was but I slept well which is strange because I'm so full of anxiety I never sleep, my mind will keep repeating things in a loop in my brain then put everything that normally goes on in there and yeah, no sleep ever. I've always wanted to write what goes on in my head but sometimes I feel I'm the reason why people should be mind readers, or maybe not, one looks at the traffic that goes on up there and a person could go insane. It's not what thoughts are but the fact that there are so many thoughts that sometimes I can't grab one and express it, bring it to life, talk about it. It's also hard for me that everything up there is in 2 languages and somethings have to be translated before being let out, I know lots of multilingual people who can do it with ease but do they have every thought imaginable going through their head? Yes fortunately I do get observed and tested ...

My first blog post The first morning of my blog.  I've always wanted to write down my thoughts just so I can remember what I was thinking and let others read to see if they have felt the same. I know every being is different, but have you ever came across someone that has had the same experience or thought, ideas or even a feeling the same as yours? It might be possible, we want to believe we are the same in someway, that all beings share a connection.  Well today I will see if anyone who I come in contact with will agree with at least one thing I say or do. Staywicked.moda